Ya know what is hard? To remember among all the 'STUFF' in our day.... who we really are. I mean REALLY are. Know what I mean? Jelly bean?
Seriously though. I gotta fill the tank, I need to finish my homework, I have laundry coming up, my friend needs help with this, my family is this and that, I want to look cute today, I wonder if anyone will notice my earrings, I wonder why I reacted that way when "normal" people react this way, she's way smarter than me, I forgot to call the office again, hey that guy is cute I should talk to him, I wonder if I should have more friends and talk to more people, class is in ten minutes don't be late, I need to make sure I'm not going over my budget on these purchases, what is my budget anyway, and........ and then.......... oh yeah. Hey Heavenly Father, remember me? Yeah sorry I've been kinda busy. Thanks for this, please bless that... k well I gotta run, see ya later, bye!
Prayer... I struggle with it sometimes. Going through the motions? Or just feeling repetitious. Anyway, today I felt like I finally connected, really connected, with the One who knows me best.
Driving driving driving... ah. Here we go. Something familiar. Something that reminds me of home. Green fresh blue wide open spaces. Beautiful clouds. Touch of rain, a few sun rays, a cow here and there to add just the right touch... yes. A drive was a perfect idea. Found out my friend might die today. Pretty close and tender friend of mine. Heart failure. Not him, why him, I kept asking. He's been so faithful. His family needs him. Father, will everything be okay? Father... is it okay to talk to you when I've been so distant?
And then the Father responds to His child. I've got Him in my hands. It'll be okay.
Drove a while longer. Came upon a town with a cute little graveyard surrounded by a white picket fence. Oh yes, that's right. I remember. There is a much bigger picture. A waaaay bigger picture. Death is not the end, not even close. There's much more to this story than meets the eye.
The Lord continues to teach His child. Because He loves her. Heavenly Father then reminded me what else has more to the story that I knew but wasn't applying to ME. Not truly. There is much more to who I am than meets the eye. I ...am a Daughter of God. With individual worth. Divine Nature. Faith. Integrity. Knowledge. I was given talents and abilities, and a specific important plan is laid out IN PLACE right now for my life. There is a specific, sacred work for me to do. How could I have forgotten.
Humbled, and at peace, I want to tell my Father in Heaven I remember, and am ready to go and do. As Mary the Mother of Jesus told the angel after learning she would be the earthly mother of the Son of God, I also hope to say each day, "Behold the handmaid of the Lord; be it unto me according to thy word." I know who I am and why I'm here. What would you have me to do today?
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