Power of Love

Does anyone else have a really hard time being able to CRY?


There are many of us in our mortal human bodies and minds who have lost the ability to feel our emotions.  Crying is an act we have long for, and prayed and prayed for years for the ability.  We feel stuck in our numb robotic state.  Apparently it's a human defense mechanism.  We can learn to cry again.  But til then.....   A favorite comfort scripture of mine is in the Book of Mormon.  3 Nephi 17.  How grateful I am for this chapter.  It means the world.


Jesus as a resurrected Being has been visiting the people of the America's right after He was crucified, and is preparing to leave them, but they long for him to "tarry a little longer."  He feels and knows of their longing, and decides then to take some precious, precious quality time with them.  He stays.  He blesses them.  He calls for the sick, afflicted, blind, maimed, leprous, and those afflicted in ANY manner, and he heals them.  He prays mightily for them, words so great that tongue cannot speak or express the marvelous words He spoke.  After he prayed, He bid them to arise from their knees.......

20  And they arose from the earth, and he said unto them: Blessed are ye because of your faith. And now behold, my joy is full.

 21 And when he had said these words, he wept and the multitude bare record of it, and he took their little children, one by one, and blessed them, and prayed unto the Father for them.

 22 And when he had done this he wept again;

Jesus also wept with Mary and Martha when their brother Lazarus died.

It takes special circumstances for me to feel very deeply, or enough to find my tears that I know are buried deep inside.  But Jesus seems to be able to pick up all the slack in everything I can't do.  He even has the ability to cry when I can't.  To love me despite my lame and awkward broken states.  To bless me when I don't deserve it.  To provide me with Christ-like friends who can provide me with that precious time, to hold me, and to cry for me when I can't.  And I know He has the power to heal me.  

There is one essence that I'm finding uniquely powerful.  As if it is magic.  As if I have unfolded a mystery like unto those of epic fantasy tales.  Like unto LOTR, or Harry Potter.  LOVE.  The more I let myself be loved, the more I feel.  The more I treat myself well, and love myself, the more I feel.  The more I trust others and let myself love them, the more I feel.  The more I study about the love God has for me personally, not just everyone else, the more I feel.  

One dose of love after another, the more I'm starting to find my emotions.  Bit by bit.  I still have a long ways to go.  But I know it's possible.  The Lord is healing me with His power, and His tears, His infinite endless love.

"GOD'S LOVE IS PERFECT"